Since I’ve stopped working, I’ve sometimes felt like I have time on my hands. I’m not sure that I’ve been using it as wisely as I could be, but one of the reasons why I felt like it was time to come home for good was that I was getting glimpses of inspiration while I was at work and by the time I got home, it would be gone. I had no energy to pursue creativity.
I resigned in November, and then the holidays came, so I didn’t feel like I could really find a new normal until late January or February. I’m falling into something of a normal pattern now. It involves some outside activities like my Ladies’ study one morning a week, a piano lesson for a new homeschooler, and my weekly shopping. I also usually visit my Mom and younger brothers at least once a week. And then I have a bunch of projects going at home.
Beside the furniture and painting plans we’ve been making and the various household items that I’ve been working on picking up during my shopping excursions, I’m also working on a few craft projects. I think I posted once about all my hobbies/crafts. Right now, I have two crochet projects, three painting projects, and one cross stitch project all going at once, plus two or three other painting projects and a crochet project or two in the wings/early planning stages.
And now that I’m at home, when inspiration strikes, I pick up my guitar and work on a song. I’m just beginning to see the fruit of the decision Sir K and I made last fall that I needed to come home. I have the time and the freedom to write the melody that is singing inside of me. And that wants to be shared. I have the time and energy to practice my playing and singing, to become better able to share all God’s songs with people.
These days I sometimes feel like I have time on my hands, but I can usually find something constructive to fill it. And I finally have time to focus on the things that God has called me to do. One is to create a welcoming home for my husband, future children, and friends. Another is to share the music He has put in my heart. I am a vessel through which He wants to sing the songs of His heart, and I just pray that I can keep getting out of His way. My songs may only ever touch my small circle, my church family, but God knows and will send me the songs He wants them to hear. If he wants a song heard by the nation, he sends it to someone on the national scene.
Do you have time in your schedule for the things God is doing in and through you? So many people these days, especially women, are so busy at work that they have little time for the basics at home, let alone hobbies. Between work and their social life they are emotionally drained, leaving less and less for family and self. Or their work and family take up all their time and they have little left for socializing or for God. I’m not trying to say that everyone should give up working, but that you should give some serious thought to this question.
What is your calling, and are you spending time on it?